I am THE WORST PROCRASTINATOR ever.  Ugh....it wouldn't have been so bad if I didn't wake up with my knots on the back of my head swollen.  I felt like I had a migraine but I knew it wasn't technically one.  I woke up around 5 am, and I couldn't move my head hardly at all.  I opened my eyes and I really couldn't see anything at all.  So Monday was a lazy bum day thanks to my migraine/headache thingy.

What I need to get DONE or WORK ON this week:
- Email progress report to my Vocational Rehab Counselor; also ask for those prescription aid programs (my meds are way too expensive)
- Get an appointment for Bunny to be shaved (her hair is too fine for my clippers)
- Taxes (!!!!!!!!!!)   I need my refund now-ish!
- Fill out FAFSA for fall and summer (woopie*sarcasm*)
- Petition up to a new degree plan (from 06 where I need more science to 10-11 where I only lack my major, world lit, one world civ, and stupid adv comp CLEP)
- Meeting with CEA this Wednesday, fingers crossed that it will actually help
- Ignite Building Event Calendar meeting (yay!)
- Trying on my cousin's Casablanca Couture dress (really hope it fits, that it's my style, and I look hot in it lol)
- Cleaning/laundry etc BLAH
- Cancelling my cable and possibly internet with Cox (internet only if they try talking me into cable again)
- Work harder on trying to sell my car (yes the new one - can't afford it)
- Start looking for a job :'(  I hate being poor
- Meet with my adviser about my German degree and what minors or majors I should be trying to pair with  it?  Very nervous about my GPA and trying to get into a masters program.  Minor in French or Spanish or both?  International relations - does that mean more business classes?
- Study abroad? Spring or Summer?  Depends on dates and $
- Possibly change my graduation date based on all the above :'(
- Talk to mom and dad about Kevin - I CANNOT support him.  If he's not going to find a job or if mom and dad doesn't care, then he needs to move home.  And I'll need to find a new roommate/apartment.  Sigh
- Talk to Janet about what flowers she'll have/be in season around the wedding date (ALMOST got it nailed down)
- Go ahead and cake taste at Shelby Lynn's with the cake lady Jennifer, see if she'll do a nice 'dirt cake' for Clint's groomsman cake lol
- Pay deposit and nail down wedding date this Sunday EEEEK!!  :-)
- Possibly beg for money from my grandparents.  I always feel so slimmy when I do do that.  I hate it.
- Write down all the prices I have been accumulating and nail down a more definite wedding budget
- Work with Clint on Kelly's wedding announcements; colors lavender/lilac, orange (tiger lilies), silver(??), green(??); Patterning them similar to Nini&Pop-pop's 50th anniversary invites I think
- SAVE $$$$$$$$$:
     ~my wedding in general
     ~my bridesmaid dress for Melinda :-)
     ~study abroad (a MUST to get into grad school - no if's, and's or but's)
     ~possibly cheaper car?


There's something I'm forgetting. Oh well.  I can always edit it.  Note pads and my calendar on my phone work much better for me than planners.  Planners are a waste of money for me because I always forget about them.


What's coming up in March:  (IMPORTANT)
~ Friday 6th: Ignite Bon Fire
~ Sunday 11th: Kevin's Birthday
                        12:45pm Appointment @ St Catherine's to book our wedding date (put down deposit)
                        IGNITE Lifegroup meeting at Gully Park around 3-3:30pm
~ Friday 16th(?): MIDTERM for World Civ 1; Get out for Spring Break
~ March 18th -24th: SPRING BREAK
~ Thursday 22nd: Overdue Hair appointment @ 3pm
~ Friday 23rd: Eye doctor appt IN SEARCY @ 3pm
                       Possible rehearsal dinner for Kelly's wedding??
~ Saturday 24th:  My baby sister's wedding - don't have a clue where yet or what time

Again forgetting something....

Now that I typed this all out it seems a lot less overwhelming.  I still need to work up the nerve to speak to Nathan either on my own or with a good friend holding my hand.  I need to work up the nerve to have 'the talk' with my parents, but I want some good 3rd party (sincere with no interest in this) advice before I do.  I was thinking a counselor counselor, need to check out the counseling center at the healthcenter on campus, and I was thinking of a spiritual church figure - Nathan, Wendell, some elder or deacon who I somewhat talk to.  I want to be honest and get this bitterness out of me in the least hurtful way to my parents as possible....I think that's the real reason why I haven't been able to do it yet.  I don't want to hurt them because despite our messed-up relationship I still love them.

Anyhow, this was to clear my mind so I can do this task set before me and study for my oral midterm.  PRAY FOR ME!!!  My mind has been in what seems hundreds of different directions, and I can't focus, I can't sit still even without sleep still fidgeting, and that blasted headache sure was a great hindrance with perfect timing.  Let's get a stupid painful headache the day of a paper due, two quizzes, and the day before an oral midterm in German.  Praying to be a better encouragement to Clint and his job-search.  I know it's tough finding them now and I'm trying so hard to keep his spirits up.  But I'm starting to feel very thinly spread out again with no Trella time or no relaxing time.  Between money problems, Kevin, school, trying to sell my car, my future in school, wedding planning/pricing/shopping, giving my sister moral support and encouragement for her wedding/next baby, being an encouragement to Clint, and even in starting up this Ignite group - it's a little much for my poor nerves.  Not saying that I am not enjoying most of all that, or that I mind.  The money and Kevin being solved/taken care of would make everything else so much more doable and less intimidating.  I would love nothing more than to pay for the perfect wedding for my sister.  She deserves it.  She's been freaking about what's going to happen once Dad and Granny see who's marrying her and DJ - tattooed guy that will be playing the guitar.  It's going to be priceless but I pray that Dad and Granny can behave and realize it's not about them and what they want.  It's KELLY's and DJ's day, nobody else's well except for Dayven. For my rehearsal dinner, I wanted a causal backyard cookout at either Clint's mom's or Mitch's with maybe a band and most definitely with some sort of alcohol and dancing.  I want to invite my family, and the only two who would come that would have a big problem with all that is my Dad and my Granny.  Shoot I don't even know if Granny will come since I'm not having it in McRae.  I really want a happy day for my wedding.  It seems impossible when you throw in dad and granny though, unless you do everything their way.  Not happening.  Praying for just about anything in the possible light for mine and Clint's big day.

This is the other half that I need to work up the nerve to talk to my parents about.  The other half is Kevin.  Clint says I'm all talk right now about this and wants it resolved.  I want to be sure that I'm mentally and emotionally prepared for this discussion in case of the worst.  I really wish Grandpa was still here, it would make life so much easier.  He would soothe Granny and guilt Dad into behaving.

So onto studying Deutsch!!  Ich bin sehr nervös über meine mündliche Zwischenprüfung!!!