Apology

Why is the title section so imposing to me?  Oh well.

After this wonderful Christmas, I feel guilty for my rants and vents about when we would become engaged.  I know all the reasons why it took so long and had agreed with most of them myself.  I agree with the general time frame we're going with for the wedding too for monetary reasons.  If it were up to me and my heart, I would go for this summer instead of next.

I guess I just wanted to make it clear that yes I am human and had my moment(s) of weakness. I had a friend who has only been with his/her companion for little over a year, and that person had to show my ring to their companion saying see this.  Yes I admit this friend is female, and I felt bad for the guy.  I didn't let it bother me until 3.5 years with Clint.  I thought that was plenty of time.

I apologize for my childish rants involving my relationship.  I just recently saw the judgment in a what used to be close friend's eyes and knew it was from this.  If I bottle anything in that bothers me, I obsess about what was something small and turn it into a huge ordeal.  This is why it seems like I let things fly off the handle when posting to this blog.  I may be quick in saying what I said about this friend but it hurt to not be welcomed like a friend when I last ran into this person.

I am not perfect and have never claimed to be.  I don't expect anyone else to be either and I would like the same courtesy in return.  I will not apologize for being me but I will apologize for straining friendships and for my past rants.  No one is perfect.