I'm a struggling student trying to figure out what it is exactly I'm meant to do. I was just recently diagnosed with ADHD, and it makes me mad when I try to confide in people about it. Yes I know it's over diagnosed. My mom first noticed me having attention problems when I was in the 4th grade. My multiple head injuries have slowly helped it progress to the point where focus is a real struggle for me. I feel like I'm in a boxing ring trying to force myself to FOCUS. Every time my focus slacks, I beat myself up for it. That explains my mild depression I was also diagnosed with.
I decided I needed to start a blog so I can try to learn how to organize my thoughts better. I just recently made the switch from shampoo/conditioner to baking soda/apple cider vinegar. My hair is less brittle/dryed out, has better shine, and LESS FRIZZ!!! Woohooo!!! So much cheaper....
I used to be the smart kid, the shiny prodigy child. Had great grades, active in community service and clubs, and won several scholarships. I had thought that I found my niche my major but now I'm not just so sure about it. Interior design program is supposed to be your first and only priority. I'm not willing to sacrifice my God, Clint, my health, family or friends for a program that accuses me of not being dedicated due a concussion from slipping on black ice. In what world does that make sense?! Then my advisor also mentioned how I was wasting taxpayers' money. I asked how that was possible seeing how I paid for school myself with help from my family and Clint? She didn't respond and what I could read from her face was that I was wasting her time.
I just want that moment where I knew what I wanted to do. I won't lie my confidence in myself has been thoroughly shaken to my core. I still have the good ole quality of not being a quitter. I thank my red auburn hair for that. I may be rambling. Oh well.
I am me, the one and only. I can't change my mistakes and what happened in the past. I know all this is just God's way of making me stronger. Friends and family bear with me while I take the usual route - the long complicated way due to my over-thinking and talking stuff out.
Know where you are with the not being sure of what you want to do. I was that way, still am that way a little bit, which is why I'm still in school. But I'm too determined to quit. Hang in there, love! :)
ReplyDeleteTreela. I already thought you were ADHD. lol. No surprise there. Your advisor is a jerk. I suggest you switch or don't even go to one. Just find your major's checklist and figure out your class schedule yourself until you're closer to graduating. Glad your hair is working. I currently have mayonnaise in mine. :) Now you have to follow my blog. Love you! Welcome to the blogging world, it's tons of fun. Blog frequently so I will feel like I talk to you more. You looked pretty on Sunday.
ReplyDeleteThanks ladies!! I'm going to try being on here every other day.
ReplyDeleteI'm thinking an education degree and just go for the masters. I should have a decent job no matter what as a teacher. Want to have minors in french and german. I'll learn spanish only if it means getting/keeping the job. Plus with Arkansas you can apply for that grant that pays up to I think 50,000 in student loans for teachers. I could be way off.