All my life both sides of my family have had the I'll one up you attitude. Also knew how to make me feel so small inside. Trella don't do that!!! When I try to explain the logic behind whatever it was i was doing, my family looked at me like I was an alien. I still get that same freakin attitude from everybody. Oh it's just her....what are you doing now....when are you goin to graduate....what are you studying.....you sure you're going to find a job in that?! Just shut the h up PLEASE!
Days like today where I get excited to see my family that I probably haven't seen since I was in the fifth grade. Sitting next to the 'golden' child of that is sacred and being washed out behind her in her glory just flat out sucks. I AM ME. The quirky oddball who sits quietly to the side thinking well its just best to play dumb because I think on a different wave length. I admit that I want to study German and they laugh in my face well you sure can find a job in that? Grrrr....maybe it will be best if I just don't see my family til I do have that diploma in hand.
What's wrong with being supportive and loving?! Seriously?!?! Why do I have to prove anything to you?! You are my family and I wish you would act more like it instead of being so condescending to me. It doesn't help, it just makes it worse.
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