It's been a while but I might be posting on this more regularly now due to Clint letting it slip that my friends have been talking behind my back and think I'm a drama queen due to my Facebook posts. So apparently I either am just going to a ton of stressful stuff or I just truly don't have any true friends like I thought I did.

So no more Facebook posts from me, except for the random pictures. I guess I just gotta get used to being more of a loner - friends don't text or call me, i haven't tried to either recently and school and work are literally turning me into a nutcase loner that nobody wants to be around. My parents and brother don't even care to call and check in on me. I have Clint and right now I ever so barely have him - been pushing him away due to my moodiness from being so stressed and overworked. Hopefully seeing how I really only have one friend that reads these posts on here maybe I can eliminate the talking behind my back and maybe I'll have friends that actually want to do something with me without them knowing that I know about it. It's my biggest fear, worry and nightmare all come true which is having my friends talk behind my back. So if I seem distant that's why - I won't let anybody in again until I feel like I can trust them.